Advice? Advice? Advice? Advice? Please Give Me Some?

My name is Robbie. I'm 32 years old. I should not be talking here but I have to vent. I have been in a relationship with a man with bipolar for the past 12 years. Right now I'm feeling stuck.. I love him so much but I don't think he loves me as much as I love him. I have been supportive of my man but now I'm beginning to doubt myself. I'm not allowed to talk to my friends and have someone to vent to. now I have to release this off my chest. the first thing that bothers me is when he killed my cat. he tortured my cat he put him in the microwave and killed him. He has cheated on me 2 times. the first time was when he had me arrested so that way I would be in jail. and he could have a call while I was in jail. he did that on purpose. but karma is a ***** he got his in the end that night I was in jail when he was at his call he got a std from a guy that ****** him up the *** he did not even know this guy it was just some random guy from the internet he never told me. and he had with me and gave me an std genital warts I was so embarred I had to go to the hospital and get it removed. the second time was with this guy Michael who lived on my husband rout he had 2 deliver to this apartment and get a signature from this guy. the guy invited him in for a cup of tea they started to talk then they realize they had things in common like they where gay they were both in long term relationship my man told this guy he was married and that we had a kid then this guy took my mans face a started to kiss him on the mouth and started to get frisky pulling on my mans lip with his mouth they were kissing four 5 minutes thin this guy took out his that shocked my man and made him uncomfortable he told him he had to go but Michael wanted him to stay he would not let Danny leave Danny got to leave by promising him he would come back but Danny did not go back he kept this from me four 8 months i just found out 4 weeks ago. I am so hurt by this. I feel so much pain. I'm not a hard person to love, actually I'm lovable cute, funny and my best features are my blue eyes & my legs. I also have a daughter I'm her biological father we had a surrogate mother. But now I think this relationship just might be over. I truly hope it's not because I feel like he is my soul mate. we have a life together a daughter together she is 5 years old. Danny I love you I don't want this 2 be over please try hard try to love me back & don't be so cold and heartless 1 day you look back at this time you will appreciate that I gave you chances and stuck by your side